When we use our logic to convince ourselves, we possess conviction and with that conviction we can convince others.
When we live each day with purposeful intention, usually spurred by the conviction produced through our logic, we become intense.
When we combine our intense conviction with emotion, we become passionate and when we mix that passion with empathy, we become compassionate.
Honesty without compassion sometimes passes as justice which always passes as blind.
The older we get, the more we lose of our memory.
The deeper the memory loss, the lesser the purposeful intention. With perfect recall, every moment of every day is instantly available and persistent. Since every moment lives forever in total perfect recall, the propensity is to make every moment meaningful as we will have to deal with each fleeting moment forever in detail.
When we lose some of that detail or most of that detail through experiential overload, the temptation is to make each day a little more forgettable than the last because we're going to forget most of the day anyways.
And since we have learned that now is the only time, today the only day...we can welcome the loss of what had been necessary and now is superfluous.
As our days become less intense, our convictions wobble because the logic on which they were based becomes challenged as different parts of the complicated calculations that led to concrete conclusions slowly melt away and who can really be sure of what anymore.
Our passion subsides even as our empathy increases so as we increasingly ponder our mortality we begin to hope that ultimate, eternal justice may keep an eye open for us and that lens is the compassion that we arrive at when wisdom replaces conviction, contentment replaces intensity and revernce replaces emotion.
We get older.
© 2010 Thornton Krell - 12/22/10